Loss

Well, it's been a while since I have been able to post. The Internet was finally available this morning. Steve's usually doing homework at night and that's when it works most the time. Because we live in university housing we sign an agreement to use the school's network. Some of the tenants sign it and still use their routers/xboxes/whatever 'switch' things (which is against policy) they have and they hand out IP addresses which our computer is then routed too. It's been an extreme frustration and we've lucked out sometimes when we've needed to pay bills. We got Internet on our phones because I was in dire need of e-mail for my job. Lessons or rehearsals would be cancelled and I would be out the time and money. So it's been a bit of a battle with our manager, too. He's been not really helpful. I have no qualms in talking to whomever is using the incorrect services and I did but they turned everything off and nothing changed. So we've had the IT guys over several times and it's always worked. And that is super embarrassing. They look at me like I'm a deranged stay at home mom who can't function without her Facebook account!!! Oh, well. We'll get this figured out.

My sister-in-law, Amanda, got three FlipVideo cameras for a super good deal and we bought one from her. I have been recording my kids and there's been some awesome stuff, but for some reason it has saved them elsewhere than with the software on the desktop. So I'm at another loss with that. Who knows if I will find them. I sure hope so. They had my kids doing some funny things, singing, dancing, and such.....Oh well...

Since I have Internet on my phone, blogging has really become obsolete. I'm going to try to post once a week but it's really iffy with the Internet. I tried dong it on my phone but it wouldn't put the keyboard on the post box. My facebook account is always moving because I'm constantly updated on my phone. It's super convenient and a lot of fun. I will do more here, but it's just a pain when we don't have Internet. I have all these ideas and things to talk about but I feel I need a personal blog to talk about them. I know that our readers love to see our kids and what we're up to, but most of you don't want to read about my music/opera obsession or my strange and crazy ideas. I don't know what to do. It's a bit of a struggle.

Steve is doing well. His health really seems to be improving. He's lost 4 inches around his waist (and I'm a 5/6/7/8 now), can't eat as much as he used to, and has more energy. I'm so glad that he got checked out because we could've lost him. I would've died, completely myself, if I had lost him or if I ever loose him. My friend growing up, Jennifer, lost her dad to cancer when she was about 12. I've seen her mother struggle and I know that it's been difficult for her as well. They still press on even though they are without him. It makes me so grateful for the blessings of the temple and the sealing powers that are on the earth. I've made a promise to myself that Steve and I will start attending the temple several times in the month. I know it will increase our faith, bless our family, and bring us closer together and to our Savior. Other than that, Steve's school work is going ok. I think he kind of forgot how much work goes in to college studies. I am super proud of him and I know he wants to make the best of himself for our family. He is not greedy or vain, like I tend to be sometimes, but I'm working on it. He's such a strength and I thank the Lord each day for him.

So.....I think that's all really for now. I am doing well and just found out that I don't have to do any recitals this semester. It's kind of a bummer because I love to do it, but it will be a good break while Steve is in classes. I also can't play for the opera class in the evenings because they are using full time, on track students, which I understand, but it was difficult for me because I was learning so much. So I'll be sitting in the audience enjoying a great performance in March. I had food poisoning this week and literally thought I was going to die. I couldn't even sit up without feeling like the room was going to spin me into an oblivion. It was horrible. I'm doing much better and hope that no one has to go through with that. I couldn't even keep saltine crackers down. I hate getting that sick. People thought I was pregnant and that is a definite no. Kids are in our future but we don't know when. We want a big family but now is not the time.

I've got to mop the floor and do the dishes and shower, sometime today. Enjoy the sunny weather as much as you can. I did receive some gorgeous flowers for Valentine's. I was expecting flowers but not to this magnitude. They were absolutely beautiful. Love you, Steve.